Finding Peace, In The Darkest Places..

[Sora Skywalker]

(For Now this thread is only for me, if you want to be a part of it pm me and we will talk about it, im only doing this for me at the moment cause i want no drama since im jumping back into this and in the past ive dealt with alot of drama here, right now i will just keep it for me :])

Finding Peace, In The Darkest Places.., You could say that was what Darth Sarek was attempting, confusion filled his mind and he honestly was unsure what to do, Lately, he had been feeling a presence he had not felt in a long time, The Presence filled him up with memories of the past, ripping him inside and out, he truly had no idea of what he could do, he was considering several things but not one idea certain, He could follow the Presence, Chase it, but most likely, that presence was on grounds he did not want to attempt setting foot on

The very presence was one of a friend, one who he has not seen in a long time, along with that friends memory came another, some one else, who he was very attached to, these memories were of course of Jade Light, the girl he thought of as a sister and the other memories of a girl names Xevrica Sil, once a lover of his but he had no clue where she was, he'd gone down a path to where he could turn to neither

He had not wanted to disappoint the very girl who was his only family, and the other who held his heart, Sarek, was Formally Known as Sora Skywalker, A jedi master who had left the jedi joined the sith gone back, his life was confusing, The path he should be on was unknown to him, Going his own way, trying to figure out rather he should be on neither side or one, for now he was just a rogue

And he planned on keeping it that way, he sat in his chambers on a planet unknown, he let out a exhale, trying to focus and relax his mind, this was the last thing left to do..all else has failed..

[XeVrica SiL]

...it had been a long journey.
At least it had seemed that way to lady Sil..
..she had not come here for so long.
..so long she had stayed away.

Xevrica exited her ship as "protector" watched with his lit up red eyes. Usually she would say something comforting so that he would not secretly follow her or disobey orders.
He had come to do that once in awhile now that he knew her well.
She looked to her droid and simply said
"...stay in this ship."
His red light eyes blinked.. and the droid stood tall in aknowledgment.

The door to the ship closed.

She looked to her feet.
..a deep breath came from her..
..it seemed to come from a cave within her.

XeVrica turned around and faced the planet.
::Mustafar::
..as she watched the red gleam mix with the shadows
and cliffs her heart seemed to rest a bit.
It wasn't what she expected.
Returning here.. would hurt her. At least she had thought that..

Xevrica began to walk...
very slowly she walked along the lava made ground..
she prefered it.. she didnt like the manufactured areas.
She kept a look out for anyone else using the force she still had.

Xevrica was a shadow amist the shadows.

She had come in total disguise.
No one would know her this way.
She wanted to be alone.
She covered herself in a dark cloak with hood.. and kept her hood over her head.. beneath the cloak was her true form.
Her dark skin, lithe body, yellow eyes and red hair. Her mixed self.
She remembered back for a moment when she was ashamed of that form.. of showing it where any stranger could see that is.
It was skywalker who had taught her not to feel that way.

skywalker.
The reason she had come.
Some would say it had only been a bit over a year..
but to XeVrica it had been a lifetime.
The last she had seen of him... was...

Xevrica looked up to the skies for a moment... just in time
to see a craft fly by.. it didnt stop and she walked further
to get out of sight.
She knew protector would not like that, but he had his orders.

..was..
lady Sil sat and remembered vividly.

It was at her sisters home. The hideout they had.
Her sister Una. Yes, her .. and skywalkers foster family..
they were having a beautiful meal.

And then the orders.
He had to go.
She asked him to stay at least for the meal.. after all, something had happened that day.
Sora had told her he couldn't.. he said goodbye to his parents.
goodbye to Una.. and privately goodbye to her, assuring her all would be... alright.

...the war.
That #### war!!
Xevrica sat and watched the lava as it churned.
She felt the heat of it on her face as inside she felt her own anger.
.......slowly she tried to calm herself.

why was she here? xevrica picked up a tiny rock with her fingers and threw it into the lava not that far from her.

"..what am I doing.." she said quietly to herself. Around her neck was a chain... she held her fingers around it.

Xevrica had come to Mustafar because she had always loved
the planet. She had come here many times to think, to clear her mind..

Mustafar held a special place in her memories because of the things she knew as a child about the jedi ...and specifically about a sith her grandmother would tell her about.. a sith she one day saw in person.. a vision in the force that came to both her and sora.
Anakin had told sora that he would bring another kind of balance. A force ghost of padme his great grandmother was there that day as well. Seeing them... was...
A tear fell from lady Sil's eye.
It hit the hot ground of Mustafar and evaporated as quick as it fell.

Xevrica looked down.
She didn't understand.
If he was to bring a different kind of balance..
could he ever do that dead?!

She remembered leading the Gray Jedi... the troubles they gave her. The war was like gold to some.. fighting in it was desired.
WHY? she thought....

She remembered how he had been killed, but how he appeared in other forms and then one day appeared again to her on one
of the undisclosed moons her Gray used to store their weaponry.
He had left as soon as he came.
She was left so confused about the force, about everything.

XeVrica took a breath.
The smell of the area soothed her as she did so.

She hadn't come here to think.
She only wanted to be alone..

..and for some reason..
to remember.
To remember the day that she had come here to rest.. only
to be disturbed.. a presence was behind her.
She remembered that she turned around with her hand on her weapon beneath her cloak to see a dark figure not far away.
It was the day she met Sora.
It was to be the day that she was introduced into his life.
She didnt understand when he let her onto his ship.
She didnt ask why he allowed her into his personal chambers.
Why trust a stranger such as her?
Then again, Sora was too powerful to worry about those things.
If anything it was her who should have been afraid.
...........but she wasnt'


Xevrica still held on to the chain around her neck.
A chain that had been around her neck for sometime.

She shut her eyes and listened to the lava ...clearing her mind.

Peace began to come to her.
The familiar feel of the planet was all around her.
Warm. Strong. The lava like the planets own blood.. pulsing.

Her fingers played with the chain as she sought peace...
she let them slide against the metal that stayed cool
even amist the warm air.

Dangling from the chain and glimmering in the light the lava gave off was a something small.
A saphire within it reflected the lava and a purple sparkle
came from the stone as it did.

In the dim light the chain and stone still glimmered a bit.
..the ring hung loose as it had for a year and a half as Xevrica gently kept hold of the chain, meditating.

[Sora Skywalker]

He remained in his chambers, feeling the force around him things flying around the room with his red and yellow eyes closed, but he felt that presence and every thing dropped, his eyes opened quickly, standing up quickly he threw his cloak on and moved it over his head, pulling his light saber to him and attaching it to his belt he ran out of the building quickly and looked around letting the force guide him

His feet led him down by the lava river, he saw a figure standing by it, a figure he knew so well, he walked toward her slowly his eyes slowly returning to the light blue color from red and yellow, he continued to walk close and stopped once he was a few feet away, he stood there wondering if she could feel his presence, he wondered if she knew how much he needed her...

He crossed his arms over his chest lightly, waiting..wondering, he let out a breath wanting to call out her name, "Xevrica.."he let softly escape his lips not loud but just loud enough for her to hear his words

[XeVrica SiL]

The warm winds blew against her face... as if to wake her from her meditation.. her eyes fluttered and she found herself watching the lava flow... it was strange to her how beautiful it was,
and yet how she could not touch it, so fluid.. so needed for growth and change on most any planet.. and yet..

Xevrica became alert.

........she wasn't alone.

Her eyes gazed from one side of the horizon to the other,
but she saw no one...
A dark presence was there.
She felt the energy and knew this would be the time to leave..
but her eyes kept searching.

Xevrica kept her left hand on her saber, wondering.
Was she seen?
How?
She took a deep breath and seemed to hold it a bit longer than she wanted to.. what was this? fear?
was she afraid?
No. she told herself. Precautions thats all.. she thought.

It seemed the presence was closer now
she dared not to move, she was a shadow in the darkness..

Slowly the energy seemed to change.....
she focused on the being she felt... were there two of them?

The darkness began to slowly dissapate..
and she realised her heart was beating loudly.

XeVrica shut her eyes and once again tried to gain peace.

Very soon her eyes snapped open again...
a vision came to her..
the night she had met skywalker.. she remembered well
how her heart was pounding realising the dark figure saw
her and was approaching.

A small sigh came from her and she imagined for a moment
that she was back in that first day, the first time she saw his
face, felt his presence.. her imagination felt so real to her. Almost as if.....
....as if..

XeVrica shut her eyes once again.. her heart sped up.
...... she tried to stop her dreaming, it was breaking her heart..
...but..
..the presence.. his... presence.. it was so......... strong!

..Xevrica wanted to turn around but part of her was so afraid
that if she did... she would see nothing.. no one.


"....Xevrica..."


...the voice went straight through her chest and into her heart..
her eyes welled up and opened wide..

..she turned around quickly and gazed into the beautiful figure before her....... "no.." ...."no!" ... "SORA! ! !" she gasped a little when she cried out his name..

total shock took her heart and mind ..
but her spirit was wide awake and not listening to anything
but his energies... his arms folded gently across himself.. she quickly replaced them with her own..
Xevrica Fell Right into him...
she took his energy in... and took a deep breath... and felt him sensing her... remembering her.... his scent so familliar... everything about him was ........ was.......

...her mind stopped thinking... and just for this moment her tears began to drench his cloak, down her face they fell as her hands gripped him tightly though they trembled..

..it WAS him.. this was no ghost, vision, dream or trick..
Xevrica knew with all her heart this was Sora and she was not about to let his beautiful spirit leave her arms...

[Sora Skywalker]

He watched her as he heard her words, he smiled abit once he felt her throw herself into his arms, wrapping his own arms around her holding her close to him he laid his head gently against hers, "My Xevrica..i have missed you so much.."He whispered softly in her ear, He pressed a gentle kiss to her cheek then wiped away the glistening tears away from her eyes

He tilted her head up gently to stare down into her eyes, smiling he slowly stroked her cheeks with his thumbs, pressing his forehead against hers he closed his eyes keeping her close, he never wanted to leave her side again, he needed her badly more then any thing, she was the only thing that brought even a shed of light to his world filled with darkness

Slowly he opened up his eyes and pushed his head forward, he gently let his lips connect with hers gently as he moved his hands down and wrapped them tightly around her waist, he moved his lips along with xevrica's gently a minutes later he pulled away

"I have missed you so much my love..i will never leave your side again.."He said

[number "8"]

:::::::: a tremor... slight, but significant can be felt.. :::::::::

[XeVrica SiL]

As Xevrica held on to him she felt his body relax in her embrace..
he lay his head against hers and she heard him whisper to
her ear..

"My Xevrica..i have missed you so much.."

Sora gently kissed her now blushing cheek and began to wipe away the tears she felt falling..

She had no words.. only the embrace.. she looked for words.. but she was speechless.
To say she missed him too was to little. Her life had gone on but there wasn't a day that she didn't wonder... "is he alive"
She shut her eyes.

Slowly she felt him tilt her head up to his eyes, and she opened them once more.. another tear fell.
Then she saw his smile.
Xevricas eyes lit up.
A small gentle smile came to her lips watching his face, and the smile she thought shed not see again.. she took a very deep breath watching him...

Sora was stroking her cheeks to ease her heart..
it was working.. his touch, and his smile... yes... it was him.
She wasn't dreaming.

He pressed his forehead to hers as he had many other times
in the now not so distant past... and she felt him close his eyes.

She tried with all she had to emmit her own energies and influences to ease his mind.. she felt something there..
distant, but there... and she wanted everything far away
from them now.. she only wanted to sense herself with him,
and him with her now.. nothing else mattered.

Xevrica closed her eyes as he did...
emitting what she could in her still surprised and dizzy state..
her smile came to her again.. and she counted the seconds as slowly as years pass.

Suddenly she felt his lips.
Xevrica shivered, and met his kiss.
She thought again she must be asleep, dreaming this was happening, dreaming that the man she fell in love with before
the wars, before the galaxy turned upside-down, was truly
truly there.
His kiss assured her he was.

She felt his hands gently meet with her waist and wrap around her tightly.. if he had tightened even more she wouldn't have minded.
She never wanted to lose him again.
She couldnt think of anything that could come between them,
but even if anything did she knew that shed rather be sure of where he was and that he was alive and existing than to
ever not know again.

Minutes passed like hours.. all Xevrica could feel was love.

Sora spoke to her again after awhile..

"I have missed you so much my love..i will never leave your side again.."

Xevrica let herself sigh deeply........ she rested in his arms as the sound of the flows of lava churned like a heart beat..

She opened her eyes and looked to him
...taking her hand and placing it to his face.. she felt his features
took in his presence... and smiled gently..

"...oh... you'd better not.."
she raised an eyebrow slightly as another tear dropped and her smile came right back to her again...
His eyes always seemed to see through her...

A flicker of something sparked in the force... but Xevrica was much too wrapped up in finding Sora again and being with him to care if an asteroid was going to hit right where they were... she simply did not care anymore. Not now.

She rested her head on his shoulder... "...sora..." she whispered.

[JADE Light (Skywalker)]

Jade was finally alone now....
and as she fingered through the clothing and pretended
she was looking closely at each design she could NOT get the thought of Sora out of her mind...

*where was he
*had he survived the war?
*was he gone again.. would she ever see him?
*and...... what was this.. sinking feeling she had...
*she felt happiness and yet.... something.. something was off..

She shut her eyes for a moment and pictured him...

"..Sora.." she whispered to the Force...

her heart waiting for any energy in response...

"We must hurry miss Jade" the woman said...
breaking Jades concentration...

"Yes.. yes I.. I just.. well I never had my own robes before."

[JADE Light (Skywalker)]

Jade tried to concentrate........ still ... the silence in the force and her thoughts of Sora disturbed her.
This wasn't the time to be disturbed.
It was the time to create her new lightsaber.. the time to try to feel comfortable in her new robes... it was a new begining..

..but...
Jade knew Sora well enough to know... that with him, anything could be the cause of his silence.
A small shiver hit her back... but she tried again silently.

".......................................Sora."