Love before duty (Shivilow's past true love)

[Darth Shivilow™]

Prologue
This story will tell the story of how Shivilow once came close to turning away from the darkside.This story is dedicated to all those who believe that love will over come any obstacles.

Chapter 1: Meeting Jedi Master Jacen Skywalker

After along night flying her ship away from the battle of Mygeeto Shivilow headed to a cantina to relax. She decided to fly to Narr Shaddaa to drink and maybe gamble a few hands in Pazzak. As she landed her ship near the refuge sector. she placed her weapons down into a locker,but except her lightsaber. She opened the hatchet bay doors and exited from her ship. Once she paid the docking fee of 250 republic credits she was off to the cantinia. While she was walking a man came ruining up to her which she paused for a moment.

"Please my dear lady please help my family we need credits to buy food ,or we will die. Will you please just help us out and I'll find a way to pay you back when I can"

Shivilow Ignored him and walked faster but the guy kept following her. So she turned around again and using the force told him to steal the food that he needed. He ran off and did as she told him which got him killed. She then after she watched him be murdered started to walk again towards the cantinia. After a few mins passed and she finally made it inside the cantinia. She went up to the bar and sat down to a glass of Juma Juice. The gentle man next to her was a Jedi which at the time she didn't know.

A few drinks later and she was talking to him and she introduced herself as Shivilow,and they began talking. They talked about the war with the PDS and how its making people uneasy around the galaxy. People affraid to meet this guy name AV how cruel he was to his prisoner's. The cantina owner told the two that he was closing down and they where sad. Jacen had a great chat with her and watch so bad to see her that he asked.

"Can I have dinner with you tomorrow night?

To his surprise she said

"Yes I'd be delighted"

So they went there separate ways she went back to her ship while he went to his. She lied in bed her heart pounding a mile a minuet un able to stop thinking about him.Sh couldn't help but think"Could he be the one for me??"

OOC. Chapter 2 will come soon

[Cadeus]

Shivilow...Nice... AH!!! IT CONFLICTS WITH EVERYTHING I KNOW!!! AHHH!!!! * brain explodes *

[Darth Shivilow™]

to let you all know there will be 10 chapters for the love story I'm working on 2 as we speak. To give you warning 2 and 3 will be their first few dates they have. In chapter 3 is when shivilow falls in love and finally finds out he's a Jedi.

Chapter 2 The date

Two days past and Shivilow was in her ship getting ready to go on the date.She was happy that this time she wasn't drunk from the night before. She had her hair up and was still rushing around the ship trying to find a nice dress to wear.She normally wasn't nervous but this time she was for reasons she didn't know. As she was getting dress we see that Jacen had on his best Jedi robe on. He could easily be pass for a senator he had his hair slicked up and his face completely shaven. The only thing he had missing was his boots.

"Where did I place those boots at"

Using the force he found them under his bunk inside his very ship to which he said.

"I'm just like a mindless Anthea always losing my best boots"

Mean while back at Shivilow ship she finally found a nice dress one that looked like she bought it. Shivilow is the kind of woman who hardly got out and did anything. she was ready by the time the sun had set over the city. She was to meet him at his ship ,so he could take her to Telo's most romantic restaurant. She meet him at a quarter till 6 pm and when he saw her coming at him his jaw dropped. She looked at him with a great smile and with out any warning walked inside his ship. He was still stunned by her appearance and the way she moved. He closed the hatchet bay and sat in the cockpit of the ship. He then pulled hard on the throttle and they where off. Poor Jacen tried to say something to Shivilow but every time he tried nothing would come out. Shivilow was the same way she just kept blushing and looking him up and down but smiling while she did it. Thirty min's later the ship made a land fall and they walked out together. They where hand and hand walking towards the restaurant with each other. As they made there way to their seat a bottle of juma juice was already there.

"Aw thank you you thought of me"

Shivilow said to which Jacen replied

"Why yes I did I thought it might help take the edge off of us. So my dear Shivilow I couldn't stop thinking about you the other night what about you.."

He wanted to shove his foot in his mouth but was happy to hear her say that she had a hard time sleeping just like he did. Well there food came hours later ,and they where talking up a storm and they had two bottle of juma juice in them. The night when off with out a hitch and they had to leave. He took her home and before the night ended he reached in and gave her a kiss. Then before he thought he would get smacked she kissed him back. They where entwine with one another and it seemed that all her troubles where no where to be near her. She bid him a good-bye and she went to bed. It was only three min's before she passed out with her head spinning she was finally in love.

Chapter 3 “The awakening”
After three months of dating Shivilow finally decided to open up her whole entire heart to Jacen Skywalker a Jedi master. It was during one of their dates on Telo’s as a matter of fact that she revealed herself as a sith of the Phoenix darkside regime. He was shocked at first, but he ignored it he then himself revealed to her that he was a Jedi master of the Platinum Jedi order. She first wanted to kill him, but couldn’t do it. She had fallen madly in love with Jacen, and started to fall away from her sith teachings. All her life she had ill feelings towards the Jedi and their order for the killing of her mother Shannon. He so wanted to attempt to turn her completely from the darkside. Jacen loved her so much and could sense that there was still hope for her to turn away from the darkside.

One night while shivilow was in a deep sleep her grandmothers’ ghost came to her in her dreams.”My dear granddaughter you must let go of your hate towards me. I know what I did to you was wrong, and I feel bad for stealing your mother from you at a young age. It wasn’t the Jedi way of life to go and kill people just because you lost a game of pazzak. I also must confess Shivilow that your mother was secretly as sith being trained by your own father Sidious. I did something else to you that I’m deeply ashamed of I hid your twin from you. The only family that you had left and I took her way from you the very night you were born.”

Shivilow woke up force jumped out of her bed and was staring at her grandmothers force ghost the same grandmother she killed years back. She was in tears just hearing what her grandmother said opened up fresh wombs of sadness. With a shaken and winey voice Shivilow said this to her grandmother. “I have a twin sister; whats her name? Her grandmother replied “her name is Shivila a Jedi master and in the PJO. She knows some what about you and that you have killed many of her Jedi brethren and sisters.” Shivilow felt sad, but forgiving towards her grandmother Monica. Just then the darkside left her, and she could only feel the light. Shivilow then said “What or who can train me in the ways of the lightside.” Her grandmother replied “the one you love is waiting go to him to train he is waiting for you outside this room to take you to the temple for your training.” After she had said that to her Shannon’s ghost was gone and shivilow took of running to meet up with Jacen.

[Derek Skirata]

Wow. That is a good story. YOu really have a good imagination, Shiv.

[Darth Shivilow™]

Thank you I decided to make this story for valentnes day and please people if you read this next chapter comment it. I want to turn my Shivilow's stroy one day into a book and i'll never know if its good if yall don't comment.

Chapter 4 Training towards the light
After shivilow had the dream about her grandmother she ran right into Jacen’s arms to tell him everything that happen that very night. She didn’t even have to knock on the door of Jacens ship because he was standing right there waiting for her. Before she said anything towards him he spoke up first to tell her that he knew what she was going to tell her.”I know everything your grandmother came to me first to tell me everything she knew that you were going to come to me first. I will train you in everything that the Jedi teaches but first my love you must get out of those sith robes. You will no long need these.” He took every weapon from her and placed them in a locker that had a code that only he knows so she wouldn’t try to get them back. Knowing full well that she; wouldn’t try anything to try to steal them back from there resting place.

“Now Shivilow you must forget everything you were taught and let go of that darth title for it is the symbol of a dark sider. Your new name that you will be know by is Shelia now I don’t know how much about your past but I’m telling you this now to forget the harm that was done to you. Let no emotion show and my love follow everything I teach you. Now I know I won’t have to teach you saber forms so we can get into the basics of everything. First let’s start off with reading your mind I have to get into it so I can suppress those memories of yours.”

Into Shivilow mind he went and once inside she began to show him everything that had happen to her in her past few years. The first thing he saw was the death of her mother knowing full well that her father seemed to gained access to her grandmothers mind without her knowing it. He saw how she was manipulated by the dark side to kill her only child over a game of pazzak. Then her mind jumped to the age of five he saw Darth Maul taking care of her until he meet up with Sidious. He saw how Sidious looked into Shivilow eyes seeing the woman he had a one stand and that indeed that this girl was his daughter. Shivilow memory then jumped right into her training as a sith seeing how when she spoke up against her master how he snapped her arm braking it. He heard these words from her masters mouth saying this to her while she was in pain.


”Loyalty my dear is what you need to learn for if you don’t learn it Anakin Vader will have you killed. Don’t think that I’m being kind to you. second remember what the Jedi did to you they killed you mother do you want her death to go in vein. The sith code remember that peace is a lie there is only passion no Jedi can over take you if you follow this code!!! The force is your only friend no one else and I know that your best friend rayvitous will leave the sith. She don’t believe me right now ,but I have for seen this plus my death will not help you out latter on. Don’t morn me move on for you will not see my training fully until you are much older. Now as for you pain in your arm learn from it from with pain you can gain power to heal it. Now I’m gonna send you on a mission to go and kill a fellow sith Sinestra is very tricky to deal with she knows how to bewitch the mind don’t let her use that on you!!!”

The images disappeared from her mind and they went blank from her mind the Jacen said”Fo get you past training all the pain will not gain you power that is the way of the sith. Now I know you have eagerness in you and arroangance that is also a sith teaching let that go too. Sit now my dear I’m going to teach you the way to channel youself through the force”. Shivilow did as she was asked and sat down then he the said”feel the living force it is all around you. If you listen closely you can hear the people around you going on with their lives.” She felt the force flowing from her inside her then she saw the man’s family how they are strugleing with his death. She felt compassion for them for she knew that her wrong doings towards him caused his death when he committed suicide when all he wanted was food. She saw how the wife sitting down at the table crying her eyes out for she had lost her husband only three months ago but she still felt the effect of his death.

Jacen saw her face welling up with tears as he felt her sorrow welling up inside her soul as she was beginning to feel for her crimes. He the desided that enough was enough for today’s lesson ,and he placed his hand on her shoulders. “I know how you feel , but you must know that whatever you do to another person will always have a reaction no matter how small it is. Now that’s all for today’s lesson now we must retire for now.” Months had pass after that night and Shelia started to train vigerusly she did everthing that he taught her. He was surprised to see how fast she was learning she had turned her life around all in six months time. She was beginning to learn tactical ways to avoid a fight instead of making them. It was then at this time that a year had came since they first met in the cantina and he something planed for her that night of there aniversery.
(chapter 5 the perposal to be posted next week.)

[jedi1life]

this is just totaly a great read shivilow

[Mason Fett]

Interesting. Very good story.

[Darth Shivilow™]

if you like it so far just wait until the end of chapter 9 all i can say someone is gonna die and there will be a huge fight scene.

[Darth Shivilow™]

Chapter 5 The Engagement

On a clear night right before their year anniversary Jacen was outside searching his feelings about Shelia. He had woken up from a dream he had about him dieing. How he saw how she reacted to his death it scared him that the thought that she would turn back. He thought that this was a dream just a tiny thought of imagination. So he when back inside the house on Telo's which he and Shelia shared. He stood there smiling as she slept peacefully which before she became a Jedi she never had. While she was dreaming she had a dream that she had to face Anakin Vader to tell him that she was no longer a Sith. She knew deep in her heart that she would have too eventually.Then the dream shifted to a horrible nightmare where she watch the Jedi order kill Jacen. As she watch them she saw that she killed everyone of them back and how she turn back to the dark side. she jolted up out of bed and saw Jacen standing by the window looking at her. So she got out of bed and stood next to him as she looked into his eyes and said.

"Whats wrong my love??"

He replied

"Nothing my dear just a bad dream thats all no why don't you go back to sleep. You have a big day tomorrow a do I."

So she went back to bed as for Jacen he didn't he couldn't shake the thought of what could happen. Several hours later it was day again and when he turned around Shelia had left to go to her thinking spot. Jacen saw this as a opportunity to grab the ring he got her and purpose to her while he can. So her ran to his locker grabbed the ring and headed to the ice caps. He knew she was still there for he felt her in the force standing there thinking about her family. It only took him three mins to get there for his heart guided him to her exact spot. As he stood in front of her he smiled as he got down on one knee.

"Shelia I love you with all my heart and with every fiber of my being the day i saw you i fell hard in love with you.You are my match and it would make me so happy if you would marry me."

Shelia's heart was pounding hard and she could hardly speck as she said.

"YES!!!!"

Jacen was full of joy as they kissed to make it official he and Shelia would marry as so as they could. they where happy as they could be but someone was no happy at all. Anakin heard rumors that Shivilow had turned away from the dark side and he had to see him self. As jacen let go he had to leave so he could make dinner plans for tonight and Shelia would stay there to wait for him as he asked her too. As he left Anakin Vader jumped from the shadows and would take her to his personal ship. He grabbed her from behind and she didn't strgle as he dragged her away.

To be contined

Chapter 6 the Betrayal trials will come next week

(Update: I'm just now getting to writeing the story so give me time i'm very busy with my studies since my finals are 2 weeks away.)

[Darth Shivilow™]

Chapter 6 The Betrayal Trial


As Anakin Vader grabs Shelia from behind he decides to hit her up side her head to knock her for a while unconscious. He used the force and he lifted her to his personal ship one she had been on before countless of time when she served him. Once they were inside the ship her took her weapons away from her and had her thrown into a cell. Anakin decided to have her tourcher so he had hot wires wrapped all around her body and ripped fast off her several times. Shelia woke up in pain yelling words that nobody understood the scream made a nearby droid short circuit. Then Anakin had her dragged out of her cell and whipped with a light whip which made her even weaker. All this was done to her on his ship and Anakin had no pity for her pain. He then sat down in the pilots chair and took off from Telo’s surface leaving for she had to stand trial. He was taking her to the Death Star IV the one super weapon built many times before.

Back down on the planet’s surface Jacen was almost finished when in the force he felt his love in pain and she was screaming in agony. He could not help her for he knew deep down that this was something that she needed to do on her own. Back on Anakin’s ship he went to see Shelia who was lying on the ground shaking in a very weaken state. He sat down next to her cell watching her shiver more violently than before and blood started to drip from her cuts. The blood stopped dripping down after five minutes that it had started. He got into her head knowing what he would say would affect her a lot and instill fear back into her.

“You little worm if only you followed your masters teachings you wouldn’t be in this position but no you had to be a Jedi and follow your love Jacen to the light side!! You do know that I’m placing you under arrest for crimes against the Phoenix order.”

As Anakin’s ship made its final approach to the Death Star IV he had Shelia brought into his quarters of his ship. It was here where he would inflicted more pain towards Shelia by everything he knew how to not caring at all if she died. She was thrown inside his quarters and she fell flat on her face which bruised her more. She lay on the ground unable to move so he went over to her grabbed her by the throat and slam her into a wall. She screamed more while being slammed several more times against the wall and she tried to kick her way out but she had no luck for each time she tried she was slammed harder. After what seemed two hours a knock came at the door it was her former master Darth Jadeth one she swore to be a sith till her dying day. He was a typical sith black robes, cloak, boots, and had two red light sabers connected to his belt. He looked like Darth Maul but there is one thing different between them and that was he was two inches taller and his horns were shorter.

Anakin then said.

“Enter my fellow brethren and look into the eyes of your apprentice Shivilow. See and feel through the force that she has indeed turned her back on the Phoenix Darkside’s order.

Jadeth replied

“She has apparently forgotten everything that she was taught and the oath she swore by in her training with me. The night she was knighted a sith lord and was given a direct order to follow you and to follow the Phoenix Darkside!”

Another knock came at the door and this time it was to announce the docking of the ship into the docking bay of the Death Star. Anakin had Shelia taken to the 99th floor the very room she was knighted in as a Sith lord. The room was dark with ancient sith writings on the floor and red lights lit the room. Shelia was being dragged by her hair into the room and fear began to sink back into her heart and this was not good for fear leads to the dark side one which she ran away from. Once inside the throne room the guards knocked her to the ground and activated the ray shields. She attempted to stand up, but fell back down as she just was too weak to stand. Then out of no wear as if by magic a chair rose from the floor from which she was lying in. Not knowing what was going on she grabbed the ends and pulled herself into the chair and sat in it sluggishly. Once she was comfortable the arms of it locked her down and the same happen with her feet.

Then voices began to fill the room more and more by every second that passed. They were the original members of the PDS all filling the room for her trial. Everyone was there including Lady Vader, Nikia Vader, Furion Grim, Torimo, Juibe, and many others. Then the emperor and empress Anakin and Alena Vader entered the room along with her old master Jadeth. The room all rose and cheered Anakin on for at the time he was well respected as a sith. He rose his hands up and then down to quite the room for Shelia’s trials was now to begin. Everyone then quitted down for he cleared his throat as he had a speech planned out to start her trial.

“This is the trail of Darth Shivilow who at this time is a Jedi who goes by the name of Shelia and is engaged to be married to a Jedi. She is here charged with treason from the order and this is her trail which she can attempt to defend herself. I have the floor and evidence of her betrayal here I have a holocron showing that she has a new light saber of the color of green.”

He held it up and ignited it.

“You see this green light saber it’s hers I took it from her on Telo’s where she has been hiding out from me and I’m unforgiving know that now. Shivilow and no I won’t call you by what you have called yourself do you deny that you’re a Jedi.

She spoke up but her words were broken and every time she began to say one word she was coughing up blood.

“I...don’t...deny anything...I am a...Jedi knight but…what’s wrong with …that”
Anakin now furious said.

“What’s wrong they killed your grandmother Shivilow and they are ones that are the liars saying there is a way to have peace? Then you have to think of what you have done you became a Jedi one you swore that night that you would fight against till the day you died. Yet now you have become one of them and now you’re a fool and a pan to the Jedi order. Don’t you know that only through the dark side can you ever know who you really are? You are Darth Shivilow not this Shelia that you call yourself no you are a dark sider and I know in the future you will see that too I sense great fear in you and anger is growing inside you. Now you have not defended yourself well enough so I have a solution to this I say that you are to be killed by hanging until you are dead. Unless by some miracle someone here will speak for you and save you from you just punishment.”

Just then Shelia gained strength from the power of the dark side that had grown in her again and she could no longer hide her anger inside no more. This was not going to help her at all for just at that moment the orders guards turned off the ray shields and grabbed her from the chair to a cell on the ship. She tried to fight her way free from their grip but she just was that strong enough to be able to fight her way out just yet. The sith teachings ran all through her mind her anger intensified she was beginning to hate the Jedi all over again. Before she exited the room she turned her head and said this to Anakin Vader with a deep anger in her voice.

“Your loyal servant has returned and yet now you want to kill me do it then for I know Shivilow has returned. You will not regret it at all I will get free for right now my love Jacen Skywalker is plotting to save me and the Jedi order will come after me too!!!”

Shelia was now about to transform back into Shivilow and she had sadness for she had a nightmare in the day time that came to her as she spoke she had a vision. She was terrified for her love for in that vision she saw Jacen dying by the hands of the Jedi order. She would do anything to save him but she knew this vision would not save him for he would die and she would return as Darth Shivilow. Now as she was out of the throne room and being dragged into her holding cell she felt Anakin Vader’s presents in her mind. She told him that she wasn’t sorry for her being in the Jedi order and trained as a Jedi but the dark side calls her home.

Back on Telo’s Jacen was getting ready for he was going to attempted to save Shelia not knowing that at that time that he had lost her to the dark side. He didn’t even know that at that present time the Jedi order was going to wait for him to return to Telo’s with Sheila. The order wanted her for her pass dealings as a sith and wanted to confront Jacen on his training methods. Jacen ran to his ship and typed in the corridants to wear the Death Star IV would be. The bay doors closed and Jacen’s ship took off to save his love Shelia.
(Ooc.Chapter 7 the daring rescue will come soon.)

[sith1lord]

it's an awsome story

[Darth Shivilow™]

thanks i'm thinking of ways on how to work with chapter 7 and 8 because 9 will be the true out comming of Shivilow. In that chapter alone things will be drawn into perspective. We have seen her in away come back to the darkside but in 9 she will imbrace it more with her sadness. It will be in that chapter where her true insanity really begins as for her resurrection story will come after chapter 9.

[Darth Shivilow™]

::Drum rolls::
Chapter 7 the Daring Rescue


Jacen found where the Death Star IV was located just orbiting the planet of Sullust where Anakin Vader wants to build a massive base there. He strapped himself in and hit the hyper space button and within seconds he popped out in front of the Death Star. He had to think clear thoughts but he couldn’t for his love Shelia was in trouble. Everything had to be planned carefully as to how he was going to get into the ship unnoticed and somehow rescue Shelia from dying. His ship was get ever so close to the ship and so he took off the auto-pilot so he could fly around to think of his plan. Just as he started to do a loop around someone came on to his intercom system.

“This is General Sufficius with the Phoenix Darkside order what is your business here answer now or be prepared to be shot down!”

Jacen thought quickly and replied.

“I am the executioner here to hang Shivilow for her crimes.”

Confused on why this ship came from Telo’s just to deliver a death sentence anyway he replied back.

"you have clearance to enter land you ship in the dock bay 254 and make your way to the 99th floor.”

jacen flew his ship in and landed in the bay he was instructed to land in, so as he landed his ship he was getting ready to save Shelia. He ran to his locker opened it up grabbed his light saber and grabbed Shelia’s old weapons she would need them. Still not knowing at this time that he had lost her to the dark side of the force. She at this time laying in her cell hoping that her love was really on his way and what she saw in vision scared her. She saw her love Jacen dying to protect his love from the Jedi order and she watched him die from a saber jab into his heart.

She woke up as a guard was beginning to unlock her cell which she didn’t know at the time was Jacen Skywalker. As soon as the power went out she feel to the ground and he ran over to help her up. Confused to as why the guard didn’t hand cuff her eluded her mind a bit until she saw his eyes. It was her love whom has come to rescue her from what would have been her death if he hadn’t killed all the guards to get into her holding cell.


“I’m glad you not dead my love but I feel that something in you has changed but I don’t know what it is yet but no matter we must get out of here. I fear you old master Anakin Vader has figured out that you are free and not going to die tonight. Oh before I forget here is you old weapons I changed the crystal in it to orange.”


Sheila was angered at this but shook the thought out of her mind for she had to get out of here knowing full well that she was back to the darkside. The hate she had for Jedi started to grow back but it was faint right now for it was just a tiny whisper. They turned one corner and three guards came running towards them with blasters aimed at them.

“Put you weapons to the ground and no one will get hurt.”

They ignored them so he repeated it again.

“Lay down your weapons now or you will suffer the consequences!”

They ignored him again so her reacted and fired the first and only
shot for just at the moment it fired she became a blur running right before him cutting all three guards heads off. Jacen didn’t have time to stop her for at that moment a Phoenix order member by the name of Leia Vader. Had come up from behind him and slashed her saber into a control panel alerting the others. Members started to fill the chamber but there was no sign of Anakin Vader which showed that he knew what was going on. She ignited her saber looking at every member with the insane look giving them a signal that told them that she was back. Each member ran the other way as Shelia and Jacen saw what happen for which he took the opportunity and made a run for it. Shelia running right behind him started to remember where everything was so she had him down in the docking bay before her knew it. She took one of the imperial ships from one of the nearest guard standing and took off in it. As they finally broke away from the blockade they jumped into hyper space heading to Ruusan. Anakin Vader used the force to drive home these words to her as he said.

“You will lose the one you love you can count on that and I promise you this now you will never ever be un loyal or you will die! Now if you haven’t noticed the ship of mine has a homing device so I will know where you are.”

(ooc.ch. 8 will take a bit long because i have another one that i'm working on call Talking To The Ancients.)

[jedi2master]

this is one great read shivilow it is truely enjoy able.

[Darth Angelus™]

Very nicely done I must say. I like how you made us feel the emotions rather than just read them. I really enjoy this read, well done! This gave me a few things to fix in my own star wars book I'm writing. Thanks!